im having an internal power struggle with how i will be spending March – April and the years on. im usually more of an optimist when it comes to my participation in the music and arts culture of Shreveport. im always rooting for the city in hopes it’s all ages music scene would grow. so we created an agency that will help book in that area and the gulf coast from now and forever. we want to bring the underground to a more public light. it’s a really rad project we developed called project Portculture.
i am very proud of these creations and the festivals we are planning.
deep inside though, i desire to be free of all of this. i don’t want to tell you to go to a show when you already know about it. i don’t want to promote another artist. i don’t want to continue slicing my attention in multiple areas. i wish to be involved and help still,
after April, im going to be finding myself and I’m going to be expressing myself in my art way way wayyyyyy more.
i always talk about doing this and particularly I’m tired of talking about it. used to be i would be afraid of traveling alone in fear of uncontrollable forces or what have you… now im realizing it is not really mentally healthy for me to confide in another fleeting human on a journey that is larger than life. some people have fears as well that prevent them from jumping and acting on a decision. some people have chains to the land they walk and can’t leave where they are.
i have put faith in the humans around me and it has led me to really interesting finds and helped figuring out myself as a being… who i really am.
this is my current state of mind.
still on the fence.
just in deep thought..