today [feb 16th] my grandmother passed away. i haven’t been the best son, or grandson. i’ve neglected conversations with my family because i’ve been so attached to my own lifestyles. today i am reminded that i don’t know how to cope with life on a regular basis, and that i just do my best to survive. i make tons of progress in my day to day activities but i’m still seeing it’s not enough just yet.
my grandmother believed in me the most. she did what she could to help me and my friends one summer after we uprooted from Shreveport to pursue a project much like portculture, but instead of calling my father or family i’m sitting in the sun-room of my friends house typing these memories i have left,
it’s insane and uncomfortable to realize that this has happened. one end of the situation i’m preparing for one of the most major weekends of my career and i get the text message that our family has gotten smaller.
she wanted me to make something of my life, and to never give up, and to live this life correctly. staying busy, growing as an artist and living my dreams. i know that i can make some life style changes, i know i can stop taking things for granted, i know that i can get a grip of my reality.
i’m very passionate about my art projects, i want to take them far and make something of the time spent, the years spent pursuing manifesting what i have today. i would be foolish if i didn’t realize this was a wake up call.
i wanted to be overly successful with my craft and ideas before this could happen, clearly i have no control over how this story will turn out. i’m always going to have unexpected situations arise, sadly i’m comfortable with this. strange to me how i only have my website to post anything this close to home- yet it’s the base of every signature of any professional relationship i’ve began to develop.
if you are a future client reading this, don’t mistake any of this for weakness. i have a ton of people who are following my journey unexpectedly, so i want to share some of what takes place behind the scenes, to show growth of this trek or any kind of progress made in my career. this is a hub for me. this is my life, you’re welcome to join me.