here’s to 2019
yep. here’s the tea. 🍵
for a year and some change i was in communication with a store owner over collaborations that involved my artwork. they wanted me to draw up designs for their multiple clothing brands to be paid in exchange. i thought since being in Los Angeles i was closer to Vegas so why not check in and gain some cash for my work. an artist dream right? upon arrival i sensed that this wasn’t going to end well.
to make a long story very short, this person lured me to Vegas under false pretenses and left me to figure out where to go while knowing little to no one in this city. they psychologically manipulated me with compliments and empty promises all while perpetually lying about their success. it seemed as so they carried no honest desire to work. i watched this person take clients while knowing little to nothing about design and web building. their nature was manipulating and i unfortunately fell into this.
luckily after contacting my family and taking to the internet to share my situation some friends came to my rescue.
things are still a mess, but it’s okay, i am alive and still able to create.
i would not be able to do any of this without the massive network of supporters and followers of my story, projects, and artwork. i note that also without the help of the internet this would be a lot more complicated.
this journey has shaped me into a new person. not counting from my departure to Los Angeles, but counting from my start down the path of making a living from selling art. this journey has shaped me into a more intensely aware human. for over a decade i’ve been invested into the arts and learning from every single chapter.
i am completely thankful for the experiences. these things happen they say, and it’s up to us to learn from the mistakes.
my unending passion for the arts fuels my steps. i plan to continue supporting artists and creatives with my ideas, network, and projects.
if you’re following me, you might have read that i am building a new site to operate full-time called TEAMKILLEVERYONE.
this site goes online on 11.22.18, 11:11 am pacific time at www.teamkilleveryone.com
despite all the troubles i am still working with my partners to publish this site. i couldn’t be more thankful for having such a powerful team of friends to create with. through this we will make the life we desire to live.
(also wow this all is just a weird rabbit hole of a story, you might should peep all my previous posts if you have the time)
in this photo above you see Mike Volpe aka Clams Casino completely vibing out at the first [adult swim] festival. also featured is Clams wearing my Lotus Oni Rez button i gave to him while we looked at my artwork with his wife and friends in his artist’s trailer. for parts of me this photo sings victory.. i finally was able to meet the creator of the music that influences so much of my mood while drawing/existing. i’ve been enjoying his music for over what feels like five years. his beats carried and inspired me while i drifted around making and selling art in the gulf-coast.
the moment was honestly surreal. every step i took getting closer to this moment i spent thinking and tracing the steps that my artwork led for me.
this is the story of the road less traveled. i don’t come from a wealthy family or a family of money at all. only thing i was gifted with was knowledge and the ability to create/manifest.
two years ago Clams Casino liked and reposted an illustration i made for him. shortly after he followed me and we began connecting with one another. i was able to send him that very same illustration and now it hangs in his studio in NJ. when we finally met i was able to gift another piece of art to him. it was a painting i created earlier this year called “floral minor“.
this is my story that i want to share with who ever is reading. thank you for believing enough in my work to support it. my art is truly appreciated by so many beautiful souls and this is something in this life-time i couldn’t be more grateful for.
a major thanks to the Volpe family for collecting & supporting my work. special thanks to Clams’ father for actually reaching out and buying something from the cvlt aesthetics shop to help me get to LA. again, these moments i never would have possibly thought would exist years ago.
in this recent journey, i deserve to be happy. i deserve to feel surges of joy and contempt. i know that this is never going to end and i should continue to press forward to strive and collect more accomplishments.
now… i am pushing to make my way to continue life in California.. my New Orleans chapter isn’t entirely complete but i feel guided to pursue what feels like a greater calling for my artwork. the Portculture art exhibitions are still continuing with the creative team who collaborated to help bring it to life along with the family at Urban South Brewery.
ps. i started using the cvlt aesthetics newsletter to share a ton of artwork i discover online & discount codes for our gear. please join this cvlt letter.
cc: photographs taken of Clams Casino are by LA based photographer the1point8
there are signs appearing around me consistently right now. slowly you see what you ask for beginning to take shape in the realm around you. this week was the first time i’ve gotten to step foot into the state of Florida. as a child i was told to never go East, which kind of petrified me from adventuring the literal direction East. it wasn’t until recently that i began planning for Portculture to begin hosting shows in Florida that a ton of other personal goals began aligning themselves. i started to wonder and think a little deeper about that.
my answers cannot be shared on this post.
i walked along the gulf-coast shoreline contemplating where i as a person in this moment of time is actually headed. i know that my main focus right now is developing my artwork and curating the art shows at Urban South Brewery with Portculture. i should just keep that on my plate and stop trying to be greedy huh?
i am becoming the all around renaissance man i have been growing to be. i will share my photography more confidently along side of my illustrations and paintings. if you’re following me you will certainly see over all creative expression from here on out. it’s all that really make sense to me anymore.
below is a commission i completed last week for a friend of mine. the dimensions are 11″ x 14″
you can view the full sized photo on my ELLO at www.ello.co/leeaux
if you want any artwork send me an email to firstname.lastname@example.org
thank you for supporting me, my artwork, and my journey as a creator.
my life is continuously evolving into a new form each day. for one, i have not been too observant of the days, two days mold into my single day now. the new business day is 48 hours. here’s to consistently pushing towards your goals. i give back to the creative community by networking friends with one another based on their craft. we host art shows together and display support through sharing works to our multiple timelines.
this mix of passion, philanthropy, and artisan curator/cult leader drive has shaped a majority of my life. since i was 18 this is pretty much all i know. the arts.
everyday i have been making conscious steps to enhancing my life for improvement. with that i have learned so many qualities of my self that have been attached to the definition of this vessel. these behaviors that define me. upon hitting a new mental understanding since “enlightenment” i have been consciously redefining how my character / person / vessel is perceived.
this was not at all the most pleasant experience. my mind is so far gone from this stream i began tapping into.
i shouldn’t feel bad for relentlessly pursuing pushing my art career to heights that merit respect. i should have been doing this at an earlier age -but i probably would have been riddled with foolishness since growing up, my angst ruled my emotions– i probably would not deserve it, but i know for a fact now the experience should be given a type of credibility if anything. most humans would have given up in this pursuit for mastery of your art. some people have expansive dreams and have yet began following them. it’s not easy- it’s not spelled out- the most you can do is learn from people who are taking the initiative to act. your mind shapes so much of your reality.
there’s so much more happening behind the scenes for me, i am evolving into something entirely new.